Because You Never Know When the Crap Floating Around In Your Head is going to Help Someone Else

in Depression, Living With

I was “attending” my writing class over at McDaniel College’s online learning sit last night. Truthfully, attending is stretching it. I was complaining about how tired I am, how I should never have gotten a puppy and how all my work is crap. All I ever want to do is sleep anymore.

This morning it hit me. It’s February. Typically January is the month I sleep through every year. I just can’t stay awake. The fact that I made it almost all the way through January before falling apart is surprising. Maybe I’m going to drag myself through February instead of January this year, it’s hard to say. But it’s pretty dang amazing that I was awake during most of January.

I know, I’m going on and on about this, but you don’t understand. For the last fifteen years at least I’ve literally slept at work, at home, in the car in the parking lot during January. Not December, when it really would make sense. That I didn’t do that this year is astounding.

Of course I’m having trouble keeping my eyes open now. Even though the sun is out and the birds are chirping and I’m typing, dang it, my eyes just keep sending sleep signals to my brain.

Wake up! I’ve got things I need to do!

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{ 9 comments… read them below or add one }

MJ February 6, 2013 at 2:44 pm

So glad to hear you’re getting a light box. It changed my husband’s life. The key is to use it consistently, not just on a gloomy day. Usually starting in September, he uses it every day (yeah, he’s that sensitive to seasonal light change). Just 20 minutes or so, first thing in the morning. He can usually pack it away for June, July and August. And, of course, exercise helps. He still needs naps–he’s been a napper his entire life–but the winter is no longer a time of Total Hibernation.

Our kids started “doing the light” when they were around 18. They’re not as consistent as my husband is, but they can also see the difference.

Anyhow, best wishes to you.

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Kate George February 6, 2013 at 3:26 pm

Thanks MJ, I’m taking your advice to heart. Every day, not just when it’s cloudy. I’m so far north that we don’t even get enough VitD even in the summer.

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Aunt Jude February 5, 2013 at 2:33 pm

Probably didn’t sleep thru January because you broke a leg instead. Forced immobilization.

Problem is you are a California girl!

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Kate February 5, 2013 at 2:41 pm

Too True! I’m taking Skye’s suggestion and getting a light box.

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Aunt sue February 4, 2013 at 11:30 pm

Days are getting longer – the sun shines thru the front window almost a half hour longer than it did end of Dec. Spring is coming, Kate, so you can smile and welcome it in Feb! Love, aunt sue

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Judy, Judy, Judy February 4, 2013 at 7:07 pm

I get depressed if there are too many gray days in a row but is doesn’t make me sleepy. Right now when I’m in the throes of another insomnia bout, I’d love to be sleepy.

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inkgrrl February 4, 2013 at 4:32 pm

As soon as one of the writing checks comes in or by Valentine’s Day, whichever comes first, we’ll be ordering one of the light box/alarm clock thingies. Yesh, we live in Santa Monica, Southern California, but… our apartment has few windows, so when it’s overcast it’s a dark little den of writerly iniquity and sleepiness hereabouts. Never underestimate the importance of light!

I think the reason you didn’t sleep through January this year is because you were too busy kicking ass. And now you need to rest a bit, so as to continue with the ass-kicking šŸ˜‰

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Kate February 4, 2013 at 3:36 pm

Okay, I just ordered one online. No more sleeping through winter for me!

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Skye February 4, 2013 at 12:54 pm

Get a light box, like the Go Lite from Phillips. It gets me thru the gray days that come up in Houston and I’m counting on it getting me through most of the year in Seattle. It truly helps wake you up.

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